Are there triggers for your want and need to crossdress..
I can be minding my own business not thinking about being Davina and switch on BBC Breakfast or GMB and a presenter or weather woman in a nice dress, perfect makeup, black tights and heels and I'm trans-fixed and want to dress..
Trying to analyse this is hard. I do get the link you make but feel there must be more going on. The reason is that there are always good looking women on TV, or at some point in the day you will see somebody. Is that a trigger EVERY single time? Or does it depend on whether you have dressed recently, or in the middle of a manly project where stereotypical femininity isn’t going to come into it - eg building something
So having thought about it, for me, drawing and the need/desire to, naturally comes in waves, but it does bubble under the surface most of the time. Occasionally it will boil over and I might be lucky enough to indulge.