I consider my crossdressing to be my little secret hobby, but is it accurate to describe it as such when you rarely get the chance, and when you do, it’s not always ideal? Recently, I had a rare opportunity to dress as I had the house to myself for roughly 4 hours. It was an extremely hot day in August, but never the less, I ventured up in the loft to get my gear, rushed to the bathroom for a shave, and prepared my outfit and makeup. Rushing makeup application isn’t the best idea, and is missing out on one of the nicer parts of crossdressing? Still, it wasn’t too bad, and I thought I could get a few nice pics for social media. However after about 20 minutes of wearing my wig and doing a bit of walking to and fro from the camera I was pouring with sweat! I checked the time, and had an hour or so before I wasn’t going to be alone anymore, so I rushed to get everything off, away, and sweeping the house for any evidence. I did get a few ok shots, but on reflection, I didn’t really enjoy it one bit! I thought to myself ‘ I won’t be in a hurry to do that again’! But here I am a few weeks later, looking forward to my next chance, hopefully with a bit more time & when it’s not quite so hot.

You completely have my sympathy as I understand where you're coming from. My wife is getting more understanding and even my youngest is aware but still it's awkward. Currently living with family so zero opportunity to dress. Fingers crossed an opportunity turns up soon for us all.

@Davina. Given the (relative) freedom you had to dress previously I can appreciate it must be extremely difficult for you now given the change of circumstances that you find yourself in and have previously spoken about. I suspect that many of us may have wished we had had similar freedom to do the same over the years. NGL, it is really difficult space to be in, wanting to dress and not being able to. The best I get at the moment is a fleeting chance to try on a new dress and immediately take it off again. Not satisfying in the least and I certainly have no time for lingerie, jewellery or a wig. The last time I tried a dress on there were sequins all over the floor and a colleague nearly walked in on me when I thought everybody had gone home on a Friday afternoon 😮. I panicked about the sequins and made an excuse to vacuum the area after the weekend 😂. I won't be snatching moments like that again in a hurry. I sincerely hope you can find a little time in the near future to dress again. I know how much it means to you. Stay strong 💪

One of my favorites 😍

A gorgeous picture of Rachel in one of her best looks 😍🥳😘😁🙏

I know but would hate for ‘R’ and Rachel to go through this alone knowing this has also affected they’re younger years and childhood- I just want to be here for them and will love him until the end of the world- end of!

It can be lonely and fruatrating

Oh Davina- I just want to give you an enormous hug right now, I couldn’t imagine my ‘R’ going through this right now although I understand that he has gone through some terrible and lonely times and it truly breaks my heart to think about what Rachel has gone through- I find this so upsetting and just want to help where I can 🥰

😢🤗

Will Esme not be willing to have an evening out with Davina to save her sanity- and to strengthen your relationship?

It is for me as well. At some point I will be getting changed in the car 😱😢

I feel so sorry that you are struggling so badly, Rachel organize’s evenings out and we decide who’s going R or Rachel and plan the day around that - the end of the night can be a let down of de-structuring Rachel back to ‘R’ but needs to be done to achieve that Rachel has been able to de-stress and be Rachel- it’s so worth it 😘

Update led in the bath watching Ozark.. And thinking what if I shaved and then dried myself walk thru the living room in my towel telling Esme I'm going upstairs to get changed and I mean "changed" as I need it.. And came back down or headed out as Davina.. Not gonna happen as we don't want the kids to know but the urge to dress is strong.