Can I ask what you do as it sounds so stressful. Although I remember working for large companies, managing a large workforce and having directors drop by unannounced. Back in the 2008 recession I was made redundant and since then dabbled with employment but have been self employed. Money is less than half but we manage. Sooner have a day with the family than all that stress and shit again, largely from people who barely know you or respect you. Mental health is everything and I'm not ashamed to admit mine has been shaky at times. I completely get the stress busting escapism that being Ally or Davina creates. Stay well buddy.