Interview for Born.

It's been a while since I posted here, the main reason being I've had been trying to work out who I am in more detail I guess.

I've been preparing for my first time out which is only a few weeks away now and looking forward to it emensly, i have even managed to arrange a makeup artist to come and visit me in my hotel room for a makeover for my big night at the Christmas Ball.

So everything is set, outfit is sorted, dress shoes, clutch bag, just need to buy some perfume and I'm all set.

Also just recently the makeup artist Paul Heaton I went to see back in August asked if there where any transgender or crossdressers who would be willing to take part in interviews to tell their story to try and help others in the same position.

I decided to contact Paul and volunteer, so we spoke about what we wanted to talk about and we did the interview on the 26th of October and it was published on YouTube last Monday.

I guess I've stuck my neck out quite a bit by doing the interview for YouTube, but if it helps others to relate to my story and can find confidence to be themselves then it'll be worthwhile.

So, i hope you all like it, having that makeover has given me so much confidence to go out and do these things, so, I'll stop prattling on and let you watch the interview.

Cat xx

https://youtu.be/9JGcnznz2_Q

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Catriona Dark

Dec 02, 2019

I must admit it is very difficult when I hear that other dressers who are married and some who are single have someone they are intimate with and are accepted fully as their female self.

If I'm being honest this is exactly what my final goal is, to be accepted fully by a cis woman as Catriona and my male self, now obviously this would be my wife, but at this point it seems a very unlikely thing to happen.

I've never used dressing to compensate for lack of sex, that's been my life even before meeting my wife, she's the only woman I've ever been with and that's not been that much anyway, so maybe I'm using the lack of sex as an excuse for me coming out to her and her not being interested in me.

Now I think of it sex has been very sporadic, there have been 12 month periods that we've not been intimate, so I guess she's just not bothered about sex, i don't even get hugs from here!!

And there's the problem, I am, sex is very important to me, again I won't go any further on that suffice to say I'm not vanilla!

I've never forced her or tried to talk her into doing anything she's not comfy with.

I'll leave it at that.

But since I've been more visible on the net as Catriona I've found my sex drive has increased more than it already was.

Its like I've left my wife in a different world when it comes to sex.

As I've said it would be almost a waste of time trying to talk to her about our differences and I could see me loosing my temper in frustration at her.

And in any case why should it always be a one way thing? Why should I be the one who always has to bring these things up?

She knows about cat, I've already asked her to talk to me and ask questions, anything she likes, I'm open to anything, i can talk about sex and what I like, she seems to be the inhibited one!

You see I get annoyed just talking about it on here, which helps a bit, but as a couple we're not moving forward, as Catriona I've become confident, more sure of myself and I'm getting to where I want to be.....

I feel I'm leaving my wife behind!!!!

And I don't want to.😥

Cat xx