I bet lots think of the wasted time and opportunity to dress and relax.

For me i think of when I used to dress before I told Esme, she'd go up her Mums for dinner or out with the girls (rare but sometimes) and I'd dress in the house making sure to hide I'd been dressed and a rare thing in out 20s before the stress of work and life really hit me.

Then after I told her I dressed a wasted 8 years where I still dressed but when she was out doing the same thing dressing with her knowing i dress but had to carry on doing it behind her back as was our deal she didn't want to know, then we progressed to she did want to know when i was dressed so I'd let her know in some code but even then it was a time of why do i dress guilt so wasted opportunities to dress... 8 years wasted where it could have been something we did together instead of Esme burying her head in the sand and not wanting to talk about it and me worrying about what she really thought and the guilt for being a crossdresser.

Got my head round it now no guilt for dressing at all but now new missed opportunities or wasted time where I could dress and haven't for many reasons, wanted to keep stubble for some reason sometimes work related, sometimes going out with Esme related, video meetings so couldn't dress, waiting for a delivery or too stressed and busy with work to dress.

I thought about it today too Covid-19 Tier 4 lockdown can't go out unless to the supermarket or work and I'm off work for Christmas and anyway we're in the middle of a yellow weather warning storm which has been going on pretty much since Friday so totally bored stiff and sat down the kids and Esme watching some rubbish Christmas 24 films and I'm thinking I could be dressing, doing my makeup, sorting my dresses, trying on the 2 other wigs i bought and trying to style them, but no I can't as the kids don't know I crossdress so more wasted time ... 2021 had better give us all a better opportunity for our escapism and we need to make the most of whatever time we can grab to unwind and enjoy being T-Girls.

That is all.. Just a thought on the time we waste.

Davina