Some may have read my moans and groans on here as with Covid and kids off school and Esme (my wife) not wanting the kids to know that Daddy isn't awlays Bat-Man sometimes he's Harley Quinn or Bat-Girl and the school summer holidays spent working from home in front of my work laptop and multiple screens and the new way of working that is Microsoft TEAMS and planned and random video calls and the stress of work that's been building and building for weeks making me ill and probably forcing up my blood pressure la de da de dah.. I have to start getting up early walking and jogging again..

Well this week I decided I need to blank my diary and I need to crossdress and see if it does really help me unwind and de-stress.. Wednesday I thought to myself tomorrow I'm dressing!!

I'd declined a face to face meeting in Birmingham which would have been one of the first times one of our national meetings was requested face to face.. 1) I didn't want to get on a train which now are more crowded early rush hour to travel to Birmingham and back let alone be in a room with 6-8 others from across the UK as although double jabbed I still don't like the prospect of covid which seems to be spreading faster than ever (although under reported in the news.. word of mouth) 2) Our TEAMS meeting on the subject being discussed have been drawn out and not very productive so I saw little point in a face to face which could just as well be shared and debated on screen from home and 3) I've had enough and needed to make that hole in my diary to escape the BS and frustrations of work.

SO a hole in my diary was made and i also declined the teams invite to the meeting having done them before with everyone else in the meeting debating something I couldn't see as the presenter cocked up the screen share or some of the members were inaudible ... Working away wednesday I thought sod it I'm dressing tomorrow I need to for my own sanity...

Thursday came, kids now in secondary school leave earlier to get the bus and I was up and reading emails as they trotted off to school.. The day before Esme was in the office working and I could have dressed then but for umpteen video calls one with people who insist on faces being shown on the meeting.. She was in this new black and white dress, black tights and heeled boots and makeup and i was like wow you look hot in that dress and it had an effect on me seeing her dressed that way "wow" which i wont go into lol.

Skater dress style and well fitted to her curvy figure she needs more dresses from that pattern and black tights well you know i love black tights and heels.. it made me think even more that I wanted to dress..

Anyway i detract..., Thursday Esmes in the office again this time tho in black trousers and flat shoes awww I was hoping to see her in another dress black tights and heels again, I will have to talk to her female boss about office attire and insist Esme is told to wear a dress when shes in the office lol.

I'm reading my emails from weds evening (even though I stopped work well after 1700 there's still emails later than that ...) and there's lots of requests for help and one asking me to attend a video call Thursday afternoon and its a face showing type arghhhh and unavoidable double arggghhhh!!

So I'm now calculating ... and not dressed for so long and thinking is it worth me dressing I'd have a few hours and is it quality time enough to be dressed? I'm talking myself out of it .. what am I doing... sod it i wont dress.. Then around 0900 having read a few email and taken a few frustrating calls on the phone .. I thought sod it I'm dressing and you know what.. I'm glad I did.

My 10-15 min makeup routine was enjoyable, I'd shaved the night before and a quick shave before moisturiser on my face letting it sink in then foundation.. maybe a shade too dark now autumn is setting in an what tan I had long gone, powder, contour and highlighter more powder and a bit of blush, eye shadow and a dab of black shadow on the bottom of my lids and lashes for a bit of a smokey eye look, mascara on my naturally long lashes then my lippy, lip liner and gloss over the top et voilla wig time and wow i can still do my makeup well in record time..

I bought some new dresses with Christmas money .. last time I tried them on they were tight but putting on a red and black one it fit perfect (I've lost weight yay me), black stockings and heels and the jobs complete and looking in the mirror "Davina is back" and I'm immediately glad I crossdressed.

I feel different and I can't explain it but it must come with a persona a different way of acting, lowering the testosterone I dont know but i worked (I've said before Esme says I'm nicer when I'm Davina... I must have a persona lol) from just after 9 until about 1230 not long but enough for now as Davina although I didn't want to work now i was dressed for the first time since June, i wanted to try on the other dresses thinking I've worked an average 48 hours per week paid for 35 of them.. but too much to do.. 1230 i changed back a nice quick foray back into the realm of Davina nice and relaxing but I wasn't really ready to change back but needs must.. a video call just after 1300..

Esme came home briefly at 1300 for lunch which she picked up before heading back to work asking if id been wearing a cap .. no it was my wig I told her which she exclaimed must be pretty tight as it marked my head lol but she hadn't noticed any sign I'd had on makeup so i must be getting better at makeup removal lol.

I'm hoping it's the start of me assuring I make opportunity to dress maybe once per week or at least once per month making a window in work time for my health and wellbeing and the benefits to destressing that crossdressing brings to me .. I also found out there's a little tab on my work cam which i can move to block over my camera lol that will be used with the excuse I've no idea why TEAMS isn't picking up my camera... no the tabs not over the cam.. strange oh well

It felt really beneficial to my health and wellbeing my little Escapism Thursday so "guys / girls" if you do get that chance even if it's just for a few hours take it from me grab the chance with both hands and indulge in our hobby of Crossdressing and reap the benefits of the escapism even if working from home..

Davina