So having a family breakfast and out of the blue the kids start discussing non uniform day.. Goths and word dress sense etc..

I remember non uniform days but don't recall anything untoward when I was in school some were into heavy metal and dressed in black with rock t-shirts on etc..

Anyway littlest said "There's a boy in my class dresses in school uniform but at home he wears dresses and skirts and makeup ... Its fine and everything up to him how he dresses and he's got a boyfriend"

A few things from this.. She's aware of trans issues and sexuality at a much younger age than I was.

At that age I was crossdressing in secret but my young mind there was straight (me) and Gay.. Not me and I didn't know anyone who cross dressed or was gay when I was in school. Bisexual was something I wasn't aware of till I was in my 30s.. Sheltered life.

Also from this he must be open with his parents about his level of transness.. I wonder how his parents felt about this and so open obviously other friends and family know. Maybe best way to be from a young age.

I can't imagine younger sporty competitive me ever coming out as a cross dresser to anyone although I bet I wasn't alone in cross dressing in secret as a kid.

Oldest piped up there's two in my year who present as girls when home both want to be referred to by girls names in school (one only sometimes) but nothing is official and one girl presents as a boy and is dept head boy..

The ones had boyfriends and currently has a girlfriend so he's said he's gay then said he's straight then bi but at home he wears dresses and makeup..

The similarity in all 3 boys with two is sexuality being gay, bi or confused about their sexuality but all must be out to friends and family as trans to some degree.. Assuming the 3rd boy is straight seems a bit of a loner but presents fem away from school it seems and they know this from their social media..

We didn't have social media as kids.. Well most of us here didn't anyway assuming we have some much younger members here too..

How open minded at this age my kids are as one word neither mentioned was "Weird" more of a 'matter of fact' conversation about 5 people in their school who are Trans and mostly open about their sexuality at such a young age.

Maybe the world is their oyster being so open about it and the one boy it seems doesn't struggle to find a girlfriend.. Or a boyfriend.. So GFs and BFs with no trans issues..

To think I used to be quite homophobic which must be a generational thing in the way I was brought up but now it doesn't bother me so much as long as its not "in your face".. Live and let live I say now.

So sat there eating breakfast.. I kept quiet made no comment as they debated the trans kids in school.. Esme likewise didn't comment or look up at me and in my head was screaming..

"How would you feel if I said I was a cross dresser and that I dress to de-stress, I enjoy dressing and presenting as a woman, its fun, I like doing makeup, like how women's clothes feel and look on me and I try to present to pass, fake boobs, wig full face of makeup and high heels and to helps me unwind from male me! Its not weird, not a fetish or perverted so hard to explain but I just like doing it"

What would they think of their dad being a cross dresser?

How would they react?

How would this affect our relationship in the future?

Would they bring this up in an argument?

Would they tell others or keep it to themselves?

Would their opinion 'matter of fact' about kids in school being trans change if they knew their father was a cross dresser?

One of those its OK them cross dressing but not my husband, boyfriend, father...??

Good that the generations behind us are more open minded about trans matters and crossdressing.

Frustrating not being able to dress and a future made harder to find time to dress as the kids get older.. Esme is right me not telling them I think.. But they may not be at all bothered by it.. But they may also let slip to a friend and out the secret goes..

I do wonder sometimes if my oldest suspects something as she looked at me a few times as they discussed the kids in school cross dressing.. It would be easier if she asked me the question maybe

"Dad are you a cross dresser?" I'd have to tell her the truth I suppose.. Or at least start with "Would it be a problem or 'weird' if I said I was?"

The important unimportant aspect in my life my reliance on crossdressing for escapism from the persona I've set up for my male self striving to be the best at everything i do and putting undue stress on myself to maintain standards ive set for myself which other people especially in work expect.. becoming and being Davina stress relieving, escapism from the man I've become and I find it fun but the unimportance of it all compared to my wife, kids, work and my expected male life .. Frustrating times.

Davina