So I've got Shingles and high blood pressure and hoping the two are related but countless people including my prospective new boss if I take a promotion have linked it to stress and working too hard. Oh and possibly sleep Apnia resulting in big gasps of breath sometimes in sleep which sometimes wakes Esme who will then wake me to tell me I woke her and here I am writing here at 03:00 as cant get back to sleep.

Maybe the promotion opportunity is also adding to stress as will change my long standing terms and conditions and I'll have to singn upto new terms and conditions hopfully a pay rise and hopfully better job security but you never can tell when the next reorg will overlook what your job does, they forget your label as Best in field of expertise in the UK (Stress also in maintaining that label) and you find its no longer on the org chart and thanks for the hard work and getting us in a great position and setting up great procedures now theyre all in place we dont need you...

Oh and I'd lose my company car which i think worries me the most having to buy a car again and miss out on them buying it out of my contract and adding it to my wage prior to pay rise so may miss out there.. In a no win situation really.

And whats missing from the equation ? Crossdressing or rather quality Crossdressing time which helps with the stress of it all. HArd to fathom I know the stress of work and the crossdressing esapism cure which is sometimes beyond crossdressing.

Ive Dressed 4 times so far in 2018 maybe I need this unprescripted remedy to stress more than I realise.

At least the Shingles is past the Contaegon Stage so cant affect anyone else.

Davina