After beginnings - A turn on

So my last blog beginnings I told you how I started off with tights, catalogues led me to explore my mother's lingerie.. how I was inspired by sexy celebs on TV..

Well around the age of 10 towards 11.. us men start puberty and with that comes urges and something embarrassing..

That something embarrassing happened for the first time to me when I was stood in front of the mirror in stockings, suspenders, a basque and high heels looking at myself..

What was the embarrassment?

I got my first erection...

I was naive, I still didn't think crossdressing was wrong my logical mind said I was doing this as it felt nice, the fabric, the nylon etc and I was subbing myself for the women of my dreams by wearing things I liked on them myself.. but this time I had an erection.

Omg what's wrong with me.. why's it gone hard? Panic panic PANIC.. It won't go down omg omg omg..

Lingerie stockings heels off boy clothing back on OMG!! It's still hard.. what do I tell my parents it's too embarrassing to tell them my things gone hard..

No clue what a hardon was, no clue it happened to boys / men no real clue about sex but I was obviously for the first time getting an erection as a result of being turned on..

Thank God after many OMGs it went down...

But

The next morning I woke up and it was at it again and the next morning and the next morning and every morning ever since.. Oasis sang a song about it "Morning Glory" lol.

It wasn't just the morning it was every time I crossdressed, every time I looked at that catalogue and every time I watched Allo Allo which needed a pillow on my lap watching it with my parents and every time I thought about women up it went..

This began my next phase..

Davina