Alpha Switch Davina?

I listened recently to a podcast on The Weekly Hot Spot about being a switch, and it struck a chord with me.

It made me think about who I am not only in my everyday life but also when I’m crossdressed as Davina.

As a man, I’ve always been a leader. I’ve captained sports teams, managed teams in work, and I naturally fall into that alpha role where people look to me for guidance, knowledge, and support.

Even in big national meetings, I’ll sit back at first, figure out who the other Alphas are, then make my move with facts, experience, and science.

I guess I’m dominant by nature and comfortable in that skin, but I haven't always been that way I was stupidly shy when younger and at some point came out of that shell I think when I started work after Uni and realised this was a serious job with serious consequences and no time for B.S.. So I started to speak up and speak my mind, pick up knowledge and it's so true knowledge is power..

My wifes probably the only person to see the softer maybe more submissive side to me and that's only usually at times when we're intimate and if she takes charge sometimes.

When I become Davina, something shifts from that get things done follow me Alpha man.

Crossdressing gives me an escape from the pressures of ALWAYS being “the Alpha.”

In heels, makeup, lingerie, stockings and a dress, I feel softer, more relaxed, more "feminine".. AS I've said before "FEMININE!!" I'm not supposed to be or feel feminine I'm a husband, a Dad and a leader what's this feminine side and readers if I didnt have this escape my blood pressure would be through the roof..

My mannerisms change without me even trying.

There’s a part of me that becomes demure, sometimes even shy, and yes, there’s an element of submissiveness there.

My wife notices it too—sometimes she’ll lean into a more dominant role when I’m vulnerable in that space, and I find myself enjoying the contrast.

"Davina is nicer" she says so is that my softer side, feminine side or more sub side? I need to ask her.

That said, Davina is no pushover.

She’s still me. The alpha doesn’t disappear; it just expresses itself differently.

If a Dom guy chats with me on-line in TV-Chix thinking he can control me, he often finds that before long, I’ve quietly flipped the script and taken charge of the interaction.

Even in my feminine presentation, the switch inside me is alive and well.

So when I think about it, yes, I’m definitely a switch.

Dominant in most of life, but with a side of me—especially when crossdressed—that allows vulnerability, softness, and a chance to yield.

But that doesn’t erase who I am at my core.

Davina might be feminine, relaxed, even submissive at times, but she is never weak.

The Alpha is always within me, whether I’m in a suit or a dress.

Davina