Check in ..

I’ve not blogged in a while, and it feels like time to bring things up to date.

The last few weeks have been a blur of school half-term, family life, and work being absolutely full on. One of those stretches where the diary fills itself and before you know it, there’s been very little space left over for me.

Not in a dramatic way — just quietly, subtly, the way it often happens.

Stress levels and frustration are high.

Being home alone has been rare, and that’s really limited opportunities to present as Davina.

When the house is busy and life is moving at pace, it’s hard to carve out the headspace, let alone the time. An hour here or two there doesn’t quite cut it — especially when dressing, makeup, and settling into that calm fem mindset all take time.

Rushing it turns something that should be an escape into another task to manage with a deadline to change back.

Work has very much been work, work, work. Busy days, long weeks, mentally draining in that way where you’re still “on” even when the laptop is closed.

It's not healthy and I also need to get back into exercise and fitness.

Family time and mental exhaustion has filled the gaps with little room left for stillness, reflection, or self-expression.

And I do miss it.

I miss the escape of Davina.

I miss the calm, the femininity, the softness, the clothing, makeup, perfume, the switch-off-from-everything feeling.

I miss having time to just be, not rushing, not watching the clock, not worrying about what’s happening outside.

What I really need isn’t stolen moments — it’s quality time. A few uninterrupted hours where I can fully relax into it, feel grounded, feel myself again.

There might be an opportunity next week while working from home, and I’m quietly hopeful. Even the thought of it helps — something to look forward to, something just for me.

But if it doesn't happen it adds to my frustration.

This is just a check-in.

Life hasn’t stopped; it’s just been too busy..

💖