Coming out to my wife

I've outlined the frequency of my dressing as occasional but never the less I was crossdressing a few times per year..

I'd still not in my early 20s communicated with any other crossdressers in line.. I'd not considered myself a crossdresser or wondered why I sometimes tried on my wife's lingerie.

Out of the blue one evening my wife asked me a question..

"Can I put makeup on you and dress you as a woman?

OMG OMG OMG Panic Panic Panic.. she's somehow worked out I'm wearing her clothes..

My answer "No.. why would I let you do that?"

"Aww come on just a bit of fun"

"No way end of.."

OMG OMG OMG she knows I Crossdress and this is her calling me out on it.

It was on my mind every day the next week and I remember consciously not crossdressing so nothing of hers was out of place incase I misplaced putting lingerie back or something she'd notice.. OMG she must have noticed her things moved she must know..

It was the following weekend and she asked

"Why won't you let me dress you as a woman come on it will be fun"...

She definitely knows OMG.. "Yes ok let's do it".. she must know so sod it let's get it out in the open she's going to put makeup on me (I'd never worn makeup before) and going to dress me.. maybe in the things she knows I've been trying on and then she's going to say "Anything you want to confess to doing or liking?"

So I let her and this is how it went..

First we went to the bedroom and she said first go and shave and come back up whilst I get make up ready..

I was shaking as I shaved and cut myself moisturised with shaving balm then nervously went to the bedroom where she told me to sit on the bed stood in front of me armed with foundation which she applied to my face..

Next eyeshadow and mascara then lipstick nothing complicated and then she styled my hair more feminine I don't recall anything more complicated that that in the makeover she gave me then she said right pick something to wear and go get changed then come back in..

I'd not looked in a mirror I picked her / my go to black body, stockings and heels and a little black dress and went to the spare bedroom nervously putting it all on.. then nervously I went back to our bedroom where she was sat up half led on the bed..

She went quiet studying me and said wow you look like a woman.. I was so nervous I looked in the mirror and wow make up hair different dressed in front of my wife nervous a little vulnerable and the poppers straining on the black body as I had an erection..

She repeated something like I can't believe you look like a woman and I mumbled something like "Well it's not the first time I've been dressed like this" thinking she definitely knows and she's not freaked out yet i took off the dress stood there in heels stockings a black lacy body and then crawled up the bed running my hands up her legs before kissing her and she suddenly said stop stop I can't do this and I said "Is it because I admitted I'm a crossdresser".. she said "you're what wait what did you say".. I said something like "is it because you figured out I'm a crossdresser?".. she said something like "what no I'm confused I was freaked out kissing you dressed as a women go and wash off the makeup and take that all off"..

Realisation dawned on me as I left the bedroom OMG OMG OMG she hadn't sussed I was a crossdresser but now she knows as I just admitted I was .. Panic!!

I washed off the makeup and took off the stockings and lingerie and nervously went back to bed and she was led in bed under the covers lights off and clearly didn't want to talk..

I asked if she was ok and she said just go to sleep.. she was upset.. how could I then sleep having come out as a crossdresser to her .. also thinking omg I looked good with makeup on..

This was awful but also the start of having to explain why I Crossdress the stupid thing being I wasn't crossdressing that much but by definition I was a crossdresser and now a crossdresser who was out to his wife ..

Davina