Further chats with my wife

I needed to talk about this.

I needed to assure my wife it's no big deal it's just something I do sometimes again I think she assumed every time she left the house I was rushing up to the bedroom to wear her lingerie.

Talking about it was hard for both of us but my wife set her first rule.

"If you need to do this I don't want to see you dressed and I don't want to see any evidence you've been dressed and I want nothing to do with it"

This was a step on the first rung of the ladder initial acceptance but also felt like 'What was the point in me accidentally coming out to my wife as a crossdresser, I was back basically to where I was occasionally Crossdressing without her knowing, seeing and zero evidence I'd dressed.. back to Crossdressing behind her back'

Our last discussion ahead of this was about wearing her things buying some french knickers, her giving me some lingerie she didn't wear.. things I'd bought for her including a matching set red bra and knickers I'd bought for her (Embarrassing to think now that I bought her that sexy red lingerie with my mother 🙈).. what was I thinking there asking my mother to help me pick my wife sexy lingerie.. she also gave me a black and grey and a black and red boat that buttoned under the crotch sparking my love for a body lingerie which is always my go to type of lingerie today.

So all that angst and tears and I was sorta back to square one dressing when I had opportunity and the urge .. heightened with the urge to try on my new knickers and the red lingerie..

But also something new.

My wife didn't know this at the time but putting makeup on me and me seeing myself my face made to look more feminine levelled me up .

I introduced in an earlier blog the trans spectrum and I'd moved from the guy who wore lingerie, stockings and tights and high heels to the crossdresser who did that but also tried makeup myself and dresses..

A new thought with all this .. how would this have played out..

My wife asking to dress me as a woman

I agree and let her

The Tadaaa moment when she said omg you look like a woman as at this point all was ok this was her idea..

I'll explore this in the next blog .