Genetics? How far away from Feminine?

Ever ask yourself “Was I born with just a few steps to the left or right of being female?” 

That curiosity — half-joking, half-serious when you think about enjoying your femininity and considering some of your physical aspects.

Sometimes I look in the mirror — in drab or as Davina — and I wonder: Was I just a nudge away from being born a woman? 

I joke, of course… but maybe not entirely.

I've always had naturally long eyelashes — the kind women comment on and curse under their breath, telling me it’s unfair.

My legs? Long, slender, and my wife (only half-teasingly) insists they’re sexier than hers.

I’ve got a shapely bum, full lips, deep brown eyes, and no real Adam’s apple to speak of.

If I wasn’t “male,” you’d probably say I had some lovely feminine features. And I crossdress.

I even had a work colleague who's a bit eccentric tell me I had feminine hands lol.

No idea what that meant.

Not full-time, not transitioning, not out to the world — but there’s this version of me, Davina, who lives inside and who, when she gets to appear, brings peace, confidence, joy… and more than a few compliments online when fully made up takes advantage of these features.

I think a lot of crossdressers quietly ask themselves questions like this.

What if? 

What if I'd been born a girl?

What if biology had shuffled its deck a little differently?

I wasn’t born a woman.

I was born me — with all these traits, all these quirks, and this compelling pull toward the feminine. Always loved women, lingerie, sexy legs.. Black tights heels from very young.

My long lashes the kids have inherited.. Even last night the wife said you lot and your lashes

Sometimes it feels like I was made to express both sides, however and whenever I can.

And maybe that’s the point: not being one or the other, but being able to escape to that more fem side as Davina then return to my duty cycle as the husband and dad.

In the mean time I'll keep taking advantage of my small feminine featureas which largely go unnoticed as a man but help me present more feminine when cross dressed.