Photos

As I've mentioned from late 20s into early 30s I started taking photos documenting my dressing up sessions vanity maybe looking back at how I looked fem.

I stored them on a CD- RW for those who've no idea what that was it was basically a compact disk like a DVD or Blue Ray which you could store music photos and documents on.. some were one off burns and some were rewritable where you could back up and add to it and I had a few years of 20 and 30 something Davina on one disk.

I decided I needed to talk to my wife again.

I was quite proud of how I looked as "Davina" I don't think at that point we'd discussed me using the name Davina at all.. but must have told her at some point.

So I made a bit of a presentation.

What a presumptuous idiot flaunting my crossdressed self to my wife look at me I look like a woman what was I thinking.. why would she want to see these photos.. now with hindsight.

So weeks of wanting to talk and putting it off I had this presentation on my laptop and said to her can I show you something?

She wanted to know what and I said it's me crossdressed and she said no I'm not interested but I somehow convinced her thinking maybe she sees me dressed and realises the effort I make not to portray a drag queen type look but trying to look nice.

She sat with me and quietly flicked through the posed images of me as Davina and then she said.

"Your makeup is pretty good but a bit tatty and what you're wearing you look like a tart but you do look like a woman... I just don't get it"

It made me laugh that she thought I looked tarty I thought I looked sexy lol and tarty?

The dresses I was wearing were once hers lol.

It was nice that she said I looked like a woman but I didn't get that she still didn't get it so maybe I needed another angle.

And I thought why do I do this?

I didn't know.

So if I didn't know, how could I expect my wife to get it??

More on this in a bit as disaster stuck.

A few weeks later I dressed and took photos.. input in the CD-RW and a message came up the media you have inserted is corrupt or words to that effect.. I couldn't back up my photos and the disaster was i lost every Davina photo of me / her in my late 20s early 30s..

Gutting.

I wish tho being a lot skinnier back that that I had the makeup skills and fashion sense I have now as think I'd have looked even more convincing as a woman.

I have some photos now backed up on Flikr.

Davina