Planned to dress but they have their car..

Sometimes the stars nearly align. The house is quiet, I can feel the stress of the week ready to melt away, and Davina is waiting just beneath the surface.

This week Friday was my sanctuary after another fast paced stressful week in work - House to my self my oldest not here but this time they've taken their car and could return any time so no Davina..

The peace of mind isn’t there, and without that security I can’t fully relax into Davina through risk of being found out - Maybe they have an inkling that I'm a crossdresser as explored in other blog posts but not admitting it or getting in a position where they might walk in catching me dressed - I was posting a photo from last thurs / fri dressed the other day and was interrupted noting Davina was on my computer screen which i minimised but guessing was seen - not on screen enough to recognise it was me crossdressed I don't expect..

Ha - Phones just gone on their way home so dressing would now be a panic to remove makeup as they're 5 mins away .. right decision not to dress but such a frustration as what difference does it really make how i present!!!!!!!!! GFRRRere,jhbqwegsdf,hfhk,nhsg!!! Can you feel the frustration.

Anyway on my screen getting back to the blog.. The image may have been Gabby Yorath / Gabby Logan lol as I was compared to her last week by someone who sent me the AI image below using my face.. I love Gabby shes sexy.

The hardest part. Dressing isn’t just about clothes, makeup, or heels—it’s about being able to breathe and let go and allow my guard down and the more feminine side out - Ok it is also about what I'm wearing and makeup as I enjoy it all.

If there’s a chance of being interrupted, it’s almost worse than not dressing at all, because the stress and worry overshadow everything.

But there are still ways to connect with Davina on these “nearly days.” Little rituals that don’t carry the same risks, but still remind me of who I am and give me that calm reset I need.

Low-Risk Davina Rituals:

• A spray of perfume—soft, discreet, but deeply grounding.

• Stockings or lingerie under everyday clothes, that secret comfort no one else can see.

• A quick swipe of lipstick even if it's doing my lips for a few mins then wiping off.

• Trying on just one outfit in the bedroom mirror. Sometimes ten minutes is enough but for me I need all or nothing really.

• Moving with Davina’s grace—practicing posture or walking, even while in “male” clothes.

• Writing as Davina—whether it’s journaling, blogging, on line chats or just a note to myself.

  
  

These small acts don’t replace the full experience, but they keep the connection alive.

They remind me that Davina is always there, even when circumstances don’t allow her to shine fully.

And maybe that’s part of the lesson—being Davina isn’t only about when I can get fully dressed. It’s also about finding ways to carry the escapism with me through the week, even in the smallest, quietest moments.

Davina