Turning Fantasies into Reflection: My Thoughts on The Weekly Hot Spot Podcast

I’ve started listening to podcasts again on my early morning walks — four miles in the dark before the world wakes up.

There’s something liberating about striding through the quiet streets in my exercise leggings, luminous jacket, and LED hat light cutting a beam through the chill.

These walks, the new diet, and a healthier routine have done wonders for my mood and shape. It’s me time — and, more often than not, time to think about Davina.

This morning’s company was Erika and Olivia on The Weekly Hot Spot podcast, chatting about “Turning Your Sissy Fantasies into Sissy Training.” Their discussions always walk that fine line between cheeky and insightful, and this one had a few moments that really made me reflect.

Feminization Makeovers: The Fantasy vs. Reality

They talked about feminization makeovers — the kind where you’re transformed head to toe, perhaps even taken out for an evening as your femme self. I’ve looked into them before.

There’s one not too far from me that offers a full makeover, a stay with bed & breakfast, and the option to explore the city as your feminine alter ego.

Tempting, isn’t it? But the price tag brings out my inner Ebenezer Scrooge.

Still, the idea lingers — the thought of being professionally transformed, of handing control over to someone who knows exactly how to bring your feminine self to life.

That said, I have experienced a makeover — not in a salon, but in my own bedroom. Over 20 years ago, my wife asked (twice!) if she could dress me as a woman. I agreed, curious and nervous. She did my hair and makeup, and then I slipped away to put on stockings, heels, lingerie, and a little black dress.

When I walked back in and caught sight of myself in the mirror, I actually gasped. Wow. That was the first time I saw the woman inside me looking back — long before I ever called her Davina.

I assumed my wife already knew about my crossdressing and decided to come clean. That moment — my confession — shocked her. Maybe I’d read the situation wrong.

I sometimes wonder what might have happened if I hadn’t said anything, if I’d let her think it was her idea to feminize me.

Perhaps she’d have enjoyed exploring that side more, taking control, even dominating me a little. She does have a natural dom streak — both with me as a man and when I’m Davina. (Maybe that side of her deserves a name of its own!)

The Secret Thrill of Borrowed Things

Another part of the podcast touched on the subject of borrowing other women’s lingerie or clothes — and that stirred a lot of old memories.

I’ve even emailed Erika and Olivia a true three-part story about a time I came very close to being caught red-handed doing exactly that.

Back then, my crossdressing was all stolen moments. A borrowed pair of stockings. Someone’s heels. Panties hidden away for just a few stolen minutes of escape. I was young, curious, and utterly captivated by the feel of those things — the forbidden softness, the transformation they promised.

Those were the earliest flickers of Davina, though I didn’t know her name yet. Just the feeling — the peace, the excitement, the “rightness” — when I allowed that side of me to surface.

Not a Sissy — Just Me

For the record, I don’t identify as a “sissy.” I’m me. I’m Davina — two-spirited, if you like.

On En Femme, I’d simply be called a t-girl. I don’t chase kinks or fantasies; I just feel whole when I can fully express my feminine side. That’s what this journey has always been about — not transformation into someone else, but connection with a truer version of myself.

Why These Podcasts Matter

What I love about The Weekly Hot Spot is how Erika and Olivia can turn a playful topic into something deeply reflective. Their conversations often make me pause and think about my own journey — where I’ve come from, what I’ve learned, and how far Davina has evolved.

I’ve decided to start sharing my thoughts on their podcasts here on my blog as a new series. These weekly reflections often spark something — a memory, a realization, or a new way of understanding why I crossdress. Sometimes they challenge me; sometimes they comfort me. But they always bring me closer to Davina.

So thank you, Erika and Olivia — for another thought-provoking episode, and for making my early morning walks feel that little bit more meaningful.

💋 Davina x