I had to go on a course last week that involved five nights away from home. I have not dressed in a few months, never being able to find a chance, so I immediately saw this as a golden opportunity to dress with no risk.

I could have stayed in a hotel, a one room pony, but instead I found this fantastic one bedroom cottage on Air BnB. It was only a couple of miles away from my course, on a working arable farm and accessed by a long driveway. Private and tranquil, the sunrises and sunsets over the rolling pastures were stunning.

My dress collection has been growing, despite the odd donation to local charity shops, so packing up most of Suzzanne's clothing, lingerie, wigs, jewellery etc. off I went. On arrival I unpacked all the dresses and hung them on the open hanging rail provided and put the boxes of wigs, jewellery, my boobs and lingerie on the desk and in the small draw unit. I have no idea what the host would have thought had they needed to come in for maintenance or cleaning!

Each night was a joy. Ample opportunity to try on all my dresses etc and see what I liked and what I could let go. I spent one entire evening dressed in a lovely animal print top and short suede skirt and felt so free. What a week.

The trouble is, now I am back home, I am definitely on a comedown. I cannot dress and I feel really down about it. I know that in few days I will get over it but I really wish I could repeat these days again. It was the total freedom to dress how I pleased that I miss. Maybe another opportunity will show up next year, who knows.