Yes there are a lot of us, much commoner than cross dresser how live in the closet think. You are not alone in this world, that's how most of us started out. Once you have built up you confidence, and wish to push your bounders a bit more. So join a group like this one, tvchix or attend a daytime tea party at Miss C's

and open your eyes that there are friends you can make how feel just like you.