I've felt really stressed out in work and not dressed since June I don't think so not had my "Escapism"
Last night the oldest was out and staying at a friends and Esme talked my youngest into staying at Grandparents which she really enjoys as they do things with her and they love having her so all good.
Our first time out when we dont have to rush back as the kids home alone out out as husband and wife so i didnt push anything about crossdressing or even talk about crossdressing although its on my mind a lot as I've not done it for so long and think Saturdays migraine was more to do with work stress than the DIY work up the attic.
WE had a nice time a drink and a keebab on the way home but too full of keebab and too tired for anything ... so into bed and asleep..
I woke at 0230 needed the loo and a drink and then back to bed and couldnt sleep so 0400 downstairs watching something on my laptop trying to get tired and must have dosed off about 0800 - 0930ish so i'll need some sleep tonight..
I was thinking then ok we didnt have a girls night, may not have gone down well anyway as we need husband and wife nights but i was up at 0400 Esme in bed kids elsewhere I could have dressed at 0400 till whenever lol
Wasted opportunity to unwind.. Work stress is still with me as back tomorrow but not long now until i can crossdress working from home and a realisation how much crossdressing has contributed to my stress release and how much i need it in my life and how ratty and horrible i can be when stressed out.
Davina
Stress is a funny thing! I used to think it was weak people that really suffered from stress, but over the last few years I have come to the realisation that it was only my crossdressing that gave me an outlet that relieved my stress. When Covid came along some of my most relaxing things (going to car shows, going for a drink with friend and crossdressing) stopped. Although some of them are coming back, the crossdressing is not as easy as it was and complicated by the fact that as my wife knows and wants me to keep it in the house (no meeting others and no dressing outside the house) the opportunities are limited!
However, we are talking, and that means she realises how much of a relief it can give me and what the time means to me. It is early days but I hope she notices a difference in my demeanour and tolerance when I can escape for a few hours!