There's a lot in this video which rings true.. No matter how confident and assured I look on the outside I'm not Superman (I'm actually Batman but don't tell anyone)... None of us are perfect although us men like to try to pretend we're perfect and always right and we set up fronts for ourselves on how we want the world to perceive us mine is forthright, honest, sporty, not someone you want to mess with, a perfectionist, professional and I hate to let anyone down it all adds pressure, expectation and stress .. we don't cry, we don't show weakness and we are awful at showing our feelings.. maybe the next generation will be less regimented in all this as i think its in how we were brought up and how we're expected to ask.. Our personal escapism from all this on this forum is Crossdressing... That can add stress and urges in itself.
I'm currently suffering a bit mentally as its all work work work and I've set a bar in my profession which is hard to keep on top of .. peoples expectations etc .. None of them would even have an inkling I Crossdress to overcome the stress of all this .. So watch the video "Tend to want to dress particularly when under a lot of stress and strain" definitely rings true with me and that's so hard to explain to a partner.
Scanning back through posts and came across this one again and with lack of dressing time which I knew was coming with my wife knowing about me dressing but the kids not knowing and the kids now of an age where they have more freedom of movement dressing time is nil.
Since September and the oldest starting college 5 min walk away I think I dressed the twice in October making excuses not to go out for a drink with workmates when away from home with work - 2 nights in a grotty MK Travelodge room with the view of a car park and an hour the Wednesday before Christmas a stolen hour minimal makeup trying on Esme's Green sequin wrap dress from her Xmas do..
Work stress remains.. Life's a bit ground hog day.. Up, exercise, breakfast, news (thats another source of frustration the misinformation and propaganda we're fed in the news), work 0800-1700 usually at home, dinner, crap TV, bed.. Broken up a few nights with football training.. I know I have SAD.. The seasonal whatever its called dark morning dark night syndrome .. So all in all and have admitted this to Esme this weekend I'm fairly depressed with things currently the mundane flow of life and what has helped in the past "Cross dressing" unavailable.
Its hard to admit and talk about all this I find writing it down easier..
Cross dressing is my escapism and good for my mental health.. Without it life is mundane stuck in a rut.. Becoming Davina is my something different stepping outside the box..
We sort of discussed it today ways how i can dress.. Maybe work from the desk in our bedroom as Davina not on the desk downstairs and hope my daughter doesn't come to see me when home between or when lectures are cancelled and we even for the first time briefly discussed telling our oldeat the truth.. Dad is a Cross dresser and for his mental health he uses it for escapism from his man life..
I have to do something as its driving me a bit bonkers not having this escape..
Family life needs a shake.. More help from the kids keeping the place tidy, everyone nicer to one another, droo some of the teenage attitude, work less hours, drop some national projects and work more local, get fit and lose weight to plan.. Really looking forward to getting nights back sat in the garden..
Still the question how do I find quality time to be Davina for a few hours .. We all need to think about our mental health and for any wivea reading this forget the fears you have about why we dress No1 may be like me we find it beneficial for our mental health, it helps us somehow escape us for a bit and we always return back to the man you married or are in a partnership with.. Still us and a happier us for those few hours of escapism where we can forget the mundane things.
Davina