Been very busy with family life etc, and consequently this has lead to me being a bit blunt with the hubs about all this as I have found it a bit tiresome to think about. It's good in many ways as we have chatted a lot, but things are still where they were.

Nothing new, really.

But I did have the 'perspective' thoughts Davina mentioned after all the recent horrors. I did think 'there are worse things' but I also pondered how shallow it can also seem when my husband can still think about his 'dress up' during these moments. Perspective goes both ways, I guess. Do you ever flip it the other way and think crossdressing is trivial comparatively, therefore hardly worth your short time on this earth?

It's sad, but I still have those moments where I can't see myself married to my husband when we're older and retired etc. I have seen quite a few online stories of men who decide to dress more often when they're retired and home all day - good lord but I will not be living with him if he does. Being as busy as I am now, and all these horrors on the telly, I also think like Davina and how important it is to enjoy what is left of my own life. I don't want to be limited by someone else's proclivities and I do find crossdressing to be quite a self limiting activity. Can a crossdresser ever spend a year traveling the world without his 'stash' of girls clothing tagging along? Can he freely have adventures with me without fighting a constant urge to dress up? I feel he may he a ball and chain in my future years so I can't lie and I often ponder my options. I guess when bad things happen, we all take stock of our personal happiness, don't we.

Anyway, we shall see. Hardly an issue at this point in our lives. Just a rambling post to share todays thoughts. I'm sure others will appear tomorrow! I hope you're all well. :-)