Hi All,
I say "retired" in that I'm not currently dressing and don't really have any real need to anymore. My story seems to be the same or similar to a lot of others on here (I've not finished reading everything yet!).
Basically, I've been into the idea of crossdressing for a looooong time, I dabbled every now and then but nothing serious. I did start dressing quite a lot, late at night, but it wasn't very good.
Then I discovered silicone masks, and breastplates and things changed.
Of course, then we had a pandemic and once that had cleared and I was still working from home I had the freedom to dress and so I did. A lot. It became an obsession for me, and I was totally addicted to Instagram; trying to get as many likes as possible and working with the algorithm to get as risque and raunchy as possible to drive up the stats.
I didn't realise at the time that Instagram was the problem, not the crossdressing. But I decided on a whim (probably horny... always horny when dressing, when horny I make bad decisions!) that I'd tell my wife all about it.
All at once.
Everything.
Even Instagram.
Then (get this) I fucked off to the pub for the night with some friends.
And left her stewing over this life changing bombshell I dropped on her.
Don't ask me what I was thinking, because I clearly wasn't.
So, the next few months are painful. Tears, arguments, I'm getting strips torn off me all the time. But we somehow worked through it all and I vowed not to dress again in secret. If I wanted to, I'd ask her first and then we'd work something out.
To be honest, it opened up a load of communication between us and I think we're better for it. We're more like a married couple now instead of a forced business partnership.
But I would not recommend the way I did it at all.
Thanks for listening :-)
Cheers,
Formerly Robyn.

Crossdressing for me has been a part of me all my life since I was a kid and continues rapidly into my middle aged.. will I still present fem when older who knows but the urges to dress is there at times of stress and boredom..
The sexual turn on has always been there turned on by lingerie, stockings heels and how I can look and how it feels on but that's not a driving factor .. chilling out the magical effect of becoming "Davina" from transformation to Davina doing my makeup to just chilling as Davina is therapeutic I step out of my alpha male self for a bit and after changing back it has a lasting effect..
Struggling for time to dress at the moment it's been 2 months since I was last able to work from home dressed and with school summer holidays and my oldests now off uni till September little chance to dress at home.. which sucks.