Been very busy with family life etc, and consequently this has lead to me being a bit blunt with the hubs about all this as I have found it a bit tiresome to think about. It's good in many ways as we have chatted a lot, but things are still where they were.
Nothing new, really.
But I did have the 'perspective' thoughts Davina mentioned after all the recent horrors. I did think 'there are worse things' but I also pondered how shallow it can also seem when my husband can still think about his 'dress up' during these moments. Perspective goes both ways, I guess. Do you ever flip it the other way and think crossdressing is trivial comparatively, therefore hardly worth your short time on this earth?
It's sad, but I still have those moments where I can't see myself married to my husband when we're older and retired etc. I have seen quite a few online stories of men who decide to dress more often when they're retired and home all day - good lord but I will not be living with him if he does. Being as busy as I am now, and all these horrors on the telly, I also think like Davina and how important it is to enjoy what is left of my own life. I don't want to be limited by someone else's proclivities and I do find crossdressing to be quite a self limiting activity. Can a crossdresser ever spend a year traveling the world without his 'stash' of girls clothing tagging along? Can he freely have adventures with me without fighting a constant urge to dress up? I feel he may he a ball and chain in my future years so I can't lie and I often ponder my options. I guess when bad things happen, we all take stock of our personal happiness, don't we.
Anyway, we shall see. Hardly an issue at this point in our lives. Just a rambling post to share todays thoughts. I'm sure others will appear tomorrow! I hope you're all well. :-)
I'm afraid that despite all the horrors in the world life must go on. There is inequality and unfairness all around and if we spent too long thinking about it we'd just go mad. We, as individuals, can't change the way things are. It is only the will of society, as a whole, that will change things but there seems little hope of the haves giving away some of their riches to the have nots.
There are people living in extreme poverty around the world and we could all do something about it but we choose not to. How often have I heard the term 'Charity begins at home' and calls to slash the foreign aid budget. It may sound big numbers but it's only a few pounds a year for most of us - the price of a cup of coffee at Starbucks!
As human beings part of our survival instinct is to squeeze a little pleasure from life. If you can't find any pleasure then what is the point in surviving. Sometimes that can be as simple as a kind gesture, a smile or a joke.
The more money you have doesn't lead to greater happiness. You need to cover the basics and from then on it becomes extravagance. As a society we've got into the consumerism = happiness. The more we have the more we want. We're all guilty of it, I'm no paragon of virtue.
I've just comeback from Rome. There are people living rough on the streets (as in most big cities) but I still bought that extra gelato instead of giving them money. Sometimes you are scared it's a scam and that you are being conned but other times they must be genuine. You're always conflicted between your own families needs and that of others. Then you see the huge wealth in the Vatican and wonder about the poor begging outside. Surely the church has an obligation to help?
There is a line in Animal Farm which says 'All animals are equal, but some animals are more equal than others'. I think that is sums thing up really well.
So Sindy it is shallow just to think about crossdressing when there are all these massive problems in the world. But then we're all shallow in our own ways and it's how we cope.